Not a Friend

I'm not a good friend, I'm not a friend at all
It's never resolved, I'm nervous when you call
My words are limp and my mind is dry
I try to be polite but I feel like I'm stuck for lifeI follow my heart, it leads me far from you
No matter how close we are, I'm far, far away
I have too much now to fill my day today
I'm not a good friend, I'm not a friend at allI don't need obligations to our crippled conversations
I'd never tell you, it's something you should know
I'm not a friend at all oh, please let me go
Somehow I don't trust you, I don't trust myselfAnd I may never forgive you 'cause I can't forgive myself
Somehow I don't trust you, I don't trust myself
And I may never forgive you 'cause I can't forgive myself