Angela Baker and My Obsession With Fire

I wont forget the day that, that I came to
And I started thinking that there's more
Than just perfect prom queens and silver spoonsAnd all I ever wanted was someone to
Knock me back to the bliss of ignorance
'Cause I feel like running head-first into trafficAnd so I'm here to say
That thought's in bed with painI won't forget the day that, that I found God
In a kitchen knife now and on my arm
So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life
And tell myself this pain is the pain I loveAs I swallow the pills of happiness
And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquakeAnd so I'm here to say
That thought's in bed with painI stand outside my pretty house
I light a match to start the fire
I called the cops to let 'em know
It's 22 Walthery AveI thought I wanted this
I thought I wanted thisI'm here to sayI said I wanted some more attention
I thought I wanted a story ending(I love the pain, I hate the pain)
I just give in
(I love the pain, I hate the pain)I think that the truth is, I'm scared
I think that I'm just scared to live
I think that the truth is, I'm scared
I think that the truth is, I'm everything that I hate