Curtains Closing

Never been sure of what life was made of
 I don't want to live without knowing an end
 And sometimes I wonder, have you ever screamed my name in the middle of the night
 It becomes an everyday swore, it's never healing
 The sun hasn't shined for years in this life
 So we force ourselves sick to just self destruct
 Digging deeper into the ground, alone.
 I closed my eyes
 Close the curtains. Lock the doors.
 Voices I tried to ignore
 I tried. I failed. I hated. I have died 
 And I wonder, have you ever screamed my name in the middle of the night